I Fell Asleep in My Shoes

I think maybe if I was a horse, life would be a lot better. Maybe more easy, more determined, more set. I mean, horses really have one goal in life: to survive. It's the same for all animals. Plus, I'm pretty sure they sleep in their shoes all the time -- horse shoes, that is.

A certain best friend thinks I'm crazy.

In other news, I'm currently writing lyrics to a song that a lesser-known musician has already recorded the instrumental for. His name is Joe Darbyshire and he's from Manchester, England. Go look him up on myspace, I say! He's pretty uh-MAZE-ing. Anywho, the instrumental is very moving and I'm hoping I can write sufficient words to go along with it -- a challenge in and of itself. Usually, or from my own experience, lyrics are written first and a sort of melody is later discovered. Apparently not in this case! Its sorta hard (haha, that's what she said!) but I like it all the same. Maybe a future career in the works? That is, if I do well. I sent him a rough draft but it kinda sucked. I wish we could meet...discuss the music...have a heart-to-heart...ya know...

*ahem* Sorry, you can ignore all of that last part.

Anyway, I missed school yesterday! It was prettay shweet because:

a) I slept in till 11:30am
b) I got another best friend to turn in a paper for me so i wouldn't have to worry about it. Ha.
c) Watched Troy and fell in love with the character of Briseis. She was soooo cool! Like, if I was a person in that time period, I'd totally be her. She was brave, prettier than Helen, had sex with Achilles, and although she believed in the "gods", to me, it'd be just the ONE GOD. So, aka, she's me. Haha. (although I'm not as pretty or brave...ah well).
d) I did the dishes for me madre :D
and e) Tried catching up on The Great Gatsby (hey! I'm on chapter 4 people!)

So, all-in-all, I had a pretty swell day and now, apparently, my best friends are planning a sleep-over thing for my birfday! Dear Lord, I feel like a biotch. I mean, I hardly do anything special, I'm terrible at giving gifts, planning parties, or comforting people. Basically, all I can do is make jokes. Cheer you up. Whatever. Gah, I'm a horrible friend.

Another realization: I don't have a crush on anyone. Once again, its a little scary. Call me superficial, but I believe life runs a little dreamier when you've got a cute boy in sight.

Just for your information, this is what cookies look like when they are baking:



Just thought you should know.

COMING UP IN THE NEXT ISSUE OF JACKS'S BLOG:

A huge playlist courtesy of http://www.projectplaylist.com THE best playlist website. I used to think http://www.radioblogclub.com was until it shut down multiple times, disgracing it forever.

Well, its time to wrap up in a huge Jacks enchilada. G'night, folks!

XOXO

Jacks

"Stress" Rhymes With "Mess"

...and stress is a mess. Ha.

No, seriously. I was so out of my mind this morning. I couldn't handle anymore work, anymore disappointment. I went into physics tutoring after discovering that hey! we've got a book assignment due today! Oops! Yeah, no one had really heard of it except maybe once (harsh reality, I know. I don't need to hear anymore life lessons, k?) Anyway, I went in and guess what? My teacher makes me feel like a complete dumb***. It sucked. I almost cried. I felt like curling up in a ball and bawling my eyes out.

Long story short: I didn't. But when I finally got home and wrote down exactly what I need to do today, this week, this month...I realized I could handle it.

School brings out the worst in me.

Here's a video that'll further cheer the mood! If there were ever a video/song combination that would describe me, it'd be this:



Ah-MAZE-ing.

Truly, I don't understand why people have to fight. <---(I know, completely random but what can I say?) Its stupid, gets you practically no where, hurts people's feelings or causes them injury...there are so many negatives...how in the world can someone just ignore those and just jump to conclusions? Just go right in and argue and fight and cause so much damage?

I don't know. I may sound like a hypocrite but these are just my views; you can ignore them, I promise :]

In other news, I was inspired Sunday by a wonderful Muslim convert, Reverend Karim Buduoai (<---most likely spelled wrong). He spoke at our church, telling stories and talking about how important bringing others the good news is. Plus ten for him too because he never said once that we should push religion onto people. We should form friendships, trust, love and all that before we can talk about Lutheranism (what I am and what he converted to).

After Bible study I nervously approached him and told him that he definitely inspired me and I was curious if he needed help at ESL classes. He gave me one of those nice side-hugs and said, "I really appreciate that!". He then gave me a sheet of paper to get my info (number, email) and said he hoped he'd see me soon.

I don't know why I did what I did. It suddenly just felt right, you know? I was almost doubting myself but my heart urged me on.

Is this a sign?

XOXO

-Jacks

2 + 2 = 5

Nuff said.

Go here: http://www.meninhats.com

Hilarious stuff.

By the way, I've chosen a couple more poems and will be posting them on (most likely) myspace soon so, check it out:

http://www.myspace.com/bananalotion

and make sure you vote!

XOXO

-Jacks

Be Jealous: I Walked Barefoot Outside

Cold Hands

The cold hands that silenced my lips
Stiff and bare
You wiped away the tears that formed
Under my eyes
But struck them into cold ice

Those cold hands

You worked with a hard glance
To my face
I felt naked as you caressed my warm skin
Freezing the hair that prickled

Those cold hands

I don't know if I should
I promised I would

Those cold hands
Will freeze my heart

What do you think? Orginally, it was a song. Totally don't remember writing it. The point of posting was to ask what everyone thinks because I was gonna do this contest where they pick the best poem written by a teenager for different amounts of scholarships so, duh, I thought I should give it a shot. :]

Here's a suggestion to film fanatics: watch the movie Peaceful Warrior. I was sitting there, partly weirded out, mostly amazed at all the wisdom they were trying to share. Basically, its a film on life's lesson and what I thought was the main idea of the story (based on a true events, no less):

"The journey is what brings us happiness not the destination."

As said by the main character, Dan Millman. A very thought-provoking movie and I highly recommend taking some time out for it. It'll make you want to take another look at your life.

Anyway, enough about praising works of art. Here's my list of concerts I desperately must attend!

The Bravery @ The Granada -- Feb. 6th
Jon Cook @ The Door -- Feb. 14th
We Shot the Moon @ The Door -- Feb. 15th
Black and White Years @ Stubb's -- Feb. 22th
The Redwalls @ Lola's -- Feb. 27th
The Jonas Brothers @ Nokia -- Feb. 28th
Feist @ Palladium Ballroom -- April 16th

Man, I'm so excited. If only Sondre Lerche and Led Zeppelin came back, then everything would be perfect.

Oh, yeah, and if the Beatles were all alive.

XOXO

-Jacks